omg i feel like some professional spammer. not only do i spam email inboxes, now i also spam sms inboxes. i feel so automated, suddenly. like in today's pol science lecture when she mentioned something abt how bureaucracy has no face these days. it's just an automated voice machine that picks up your phone call and makes you wait on-line and listen to stupid music.
and my ex-geog-group is pissing me off big time again.
i don't mean to sound like some condescending whatever, but i'm majorly annoyed. why can't you put everything you want to say in one message?? and do you not get hints that i don't want to continue talking anymore? is my body language not strong enough? is my text-language not strong enough? ARGH. you don't demand things from me. you don't demand things from me especially when you don't know what you're doing. and do you not understand when i say i don't want to study with any of you? I DON'T WANT TO study with you all. which part of don't want to do you not get? omg help me.
ha oops i accidentally deleted the guy's message just as it came in. too bad.
he's spamming me, just as i am spamming the facils. but at least i have cause to. what cause does he have to keep spamming me, day in day out?? and it's not just him, some other NS guy also keeps messaging me to go out with him for coffee or whatever cos he's on leave this week etcetcetc. like hello, you're on leave, good for you. go out with your other friends. i have no interest in going out with you at all. i said it once before, but noooooo he had to ask again. i'm learning how to say no to so many people in so many ways. but i don't understand why these people keep messaging me or whatever when i make it so so clear (at least i think it's clear) that i don't want to reply and i'm only doing so very very reluctantly. i'd think replying one or two or three days late in a one-word answer is a clear enough sign, no? i think i'm fated to stay single for the rest of my life and not get married cos some guys have the innate ability to piss me off all the time. a relationship wouldn't work out if i got annoyed 99% of the time. maybe it's only the younger guys who're just out of NS who're like that. leave me alone, won't all of you? i'm not even that hot. haha.
i'm just an innocent girl trying to get by in her life.
new media tutorial soon. i don't wanna go for it. i don't like going for tutorials alone. i really really hate it. i always go thinking i'll just clam up and blend into the wall and heck the participation points. but when i hear people talk and i realise i have something to say too, i usually end up talking too and all intention of remaining a mere part of the classroom furniture goes up in smoke. it's so much easier to keep quiet and watch the world going by you. but i don't think i'm made to be like that, sadly. i always end up saying things and making things harder for myself and whoever else.
oh crap i realise i sound supremely bitchy and arrogant. but i'm not, i'm just so annoyed. argh. i know, i know. i shouldn't let little things like that annoy me.
'huh why no reply?' is what the guy messages me. the one i accidentally deleted. like, 15 min ago. like, what the hell man?! I AM ANNOYED ALL OVER AGAIN. these people are too bloody free and have too damn much smses to waste.
'then nvm then... nothing impt' is what he replies when i ask him why and say i accidentally deleted his message. NOTHING IMPT THEN DON'T MESSAGE ME LAH. NOTHING IMPT THEN DON'T ASK WHY I NEVER REPLY LAH. don't take up space in my inbox, can? i reiterate. too damn free.
oh don't get worked up over little things like that, Ms Ang.
