i'll never understand the human heart. never.

seeing someone so dear to you suffer so much from internal conflicts you could never soothe is one of the hardest things to do. you know the agony, you know the hurt, you just don't know how to take it away.

Christmas is a season to love and find peace, yes?

not all in the world is loving and at peace. you'd be surprised at how unpeaceful some seemingly peaceful people are. on the contrary, you might also be surprised at how peaceful some seemingly perpetually disgruntled people are. nothing's ever what they seem, sometimes i wish i had the right 3D glasses to see beyond the deceptively flat surface and the see the much richer and deeper picture behind.

blahblahblahblah. i talk too much.

i should sleep. and i feel cramps setting in. boo to the female reproductive system. i wish i were a male. that'd solve more than one problem at one go cos if i were an XY instead of an XX, i'd be one of 'em and therefore couldn't possibly have any issues with any single one member of the XY species.

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Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earheart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Oh, someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight.

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you.

Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you,
Opened up your world

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I can ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
- that I was the one for you.

*Someday We'll Know//Mandy Moore

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