OMG econs paper just now was shitass difficult. i can't even talk about it in terms of doing well, it's how bad i'll fail, that's all.

bloody hell, spent so much time studying econs the last weekend too. all the questions were somewhat like the homework questions. i should've just copied the solutions right over, i would've aced the exam. and i spent the better part of yesterday on my back at home with the worst bout of cramps i'd had in a long time. nearly fainted cos it was so damn painful, i felt like i was gonna give birth or something. i could count the contractions and the intervals in between the intermittent super painful contractions. i frightened myself when i looked into the mirror, my lips were completely white and i was breaking out in cold sweat. and i felt so faint, it was scary. so i spent the whole day in my mom's room with the curtains drawn and a blanket up to my chin, wanting to cry but not wanting to even though i was all alone and no one was gonna see me bawl. but i knew if i did, i'd not stop for a long time, so i just bit my lip, clamped my eyes shut and tried to sleep. bad day yesterday, really. haven't felt so horrible in such a long time.

frick lah, now i don't even know what to do. the paper was the horriblest ever i've done, nothing even comes close. the 6 of us who found it not-quite-easy - Chels, Yisi, Mel, Dee and Rachel - went to Munchy Monkey for dinner to drown our sorrows in chocolate sauce and creamy pasta.

stats tomorrow and i haven't gotten my cheatsheet out yet. argh screw this sem and December just hurry up and come. by the time 6pm had come, i was ready to throw up my hands and just leave hopeless as it was, cos i couldn't do the paper at all. a million other thoughts were zipping through my head at breakneck speed, like what kind of tai tai i was gonna become and what i was gonna eat for dinner.

lucky dinner was good, back to stats.

10:10 PM;