i forgot all about my teamwork analysis 2 thing for mno tomorrow until Mel reminded me an hour ago on msn. argh. don't know how to do. spent 3 hours napping in front of the tv while doing my mno readings, watching Carol play Star Ocean and waiting for my songs to download. i had such a good afternoon. home's so far away from school, it's a nice feeling. to be away from all my work (even though i brought work home to do! haha.) to be away from all the madness that permeate the tranquility. i left all that behind in my room when i came back and breathed the somehow fresher air of Yio Chu Kang, when i came back to the comforts of my home where i feel safe and somehow protected from seemingly prying eyes.

i'm in a supremely melancholy mood now. i realised the aptness of the song Wake Me Up When September Ends when i was listening to it this afternoon. i fell in love with Jewel's subtly sad You Were Meant For Me and ended up crying over Celine Dion's Water From The Moon. i smiled at all the cheeriness of Toploader's Dancing in the Moonlight and could only nod in agreement as i let the angrily desperate words of Kelly Clarkson's Addicted wash over me. i am in a song-ish mood now. when you have no words left to use, you can always borrow the words of others to help you.

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i hear the clock, it's 6am
i feel so far from where i've been
i got my eggs and my pancakes too
i got my maple syrup

everything but you.

i break the yolks, make a smiley face
i kinda like it in my brand new place
i wipe the spots off the mirror
don't leave the keys in the door
never put wet towels on the floor anymore, cos

dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
i know you love me
and soon you will see
you were meant for me
and i was meant for you.

i called my momma, she was out for a walk
consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
so i picked up a paper, it was more bad news
more hearts being broken or people being used
put on my coat in the pouring rain
i saw a movie - it just wasn't the same
cos it was happy and i was sad
it made me miss you oh-so-bad, cos

dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
i know you love me
and soon you will see
you were meant for me
and i was meant for you.

i go about my business
i'm doing fine
besides, what would i say if i had you on the line?
same old story, not much to say
hearts are broken, everyday.
i brush my teeth and put the cap back on
i know you hate it when i leave the light on
i pick a book up
turn the sheets down
take a deep breath and take a good look around
put on my PJs and hop into bed
i'm half-alive but i feel mostly dead
i try and tell myself i'll be all right
i just shouldn't think anymore tonight, cos

dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
i know you love me
and soon i know you will see
you were meant for me
and i was meant for you.


*You Were Meant For Me//Jewel


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sigh.

7:32 PM;