i totally believe in the therapeutic power of tv.

of sitting in front of the tv/computer and just watch stories unfold in other people's lives right before you. of bawling your eyes out when the girl on tv bawls hers out when she is pulled away from the Love Of Her Life. of screaming when the ghost pops up suddenly behind the guy on tv in the mirror and the squawking macaw starts flapping his wings in some sort of weird frenzy.

that's exactly what i did today. from 1030 till now, i've been sitting in front of my laptop watching show after show after show. no thoughts of work tonight, thankyou. it's a public holiday tomorrow. my wonderful night of tv watching began with ANTM, then this movie called Dragonfly where this doctor's dead wife speaks through his dead/dying patients to tell him about their daughter somewhere in the middle of the Amazon or something. then i watched one episode of Sad Love Story. and i am in a terribly good mood now. i'm in the best mood i've been for a long time. i feel liberated, freeeeee and happy!

haha bet you didn't know that watching tv could result in such tremendous benefits right.

plus, i'm going out with the family tomorrow! i miss my family muchly! even though i go home every weekend.. but it doesn't really feel like i'm spending much time with them cos i spend SO MUCH time in church! ironic, isn't it? how i spend more time in church with the church people then i spend with my family. but yes, we are going to Ikea tomorrow morning! and perhaps Sim Lim in the afternoon. yaaaaay! :)

i want to buy more shows to watch. i brought Troy and Gladiator and Honey with me when i came back on Sunday night on a whim. i had no idea they'd be so useful! i want to invest in the Stairway to Heaven dvd as well as other must-watch-but-somehow-haven't-watched shows like Winter Sonata, Autumn in My Heart, All In and Full House. and English shows like Tristan+Isolde, Interview With The Vampire, Pride & Prejudice, Sin City and ALL JOHNNY DEPP SHOWS. and Survivor is coming back to Channel5!

i think i'm gonna regret wasting my tonight away somewhere along the week cos this week is supposed to be chock-full of work. but i think i needed the break from everything! just retreating into my room all alone to watch show after show wrapped up in my blanket and hugging my pillow is a very nice feeling. i think i should do it more often. and read more too. i don't care if people think i'm a weird recluse anymore. it's fun and i like it. hahah. i can't believe i forgot how much i enjoyed doing this!


opened my eyes today
and i knew there's something different
saw you in a brand new way
like the clouds had somehow lifted
and if yesterday i'd heard myself saying these words
i would swear it's a lie


my all-time favourite line:
you never know who's falling in love with your smile, so smile. :)
i am!

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