whenever i'm weary
from the battles that raged in my head
you made sense of madness
when my sanity hangs by a thread
i lose my way, but still you seem to understand
now and forever,
i will be your man

sometimes i just hold you
too caught up in me to see
i'm holding a fortune
that heaven has given to me
i'll try to show you each and every way i can
now and forever,
i will be your man

now i can rest my worries
and always be sure
that i won't be alone anymore
if i'd only known you were there
all the time, all this time.

until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
now and forever
i will be your man


*now and forever/richard marx


*****


omg i'm such a sucker for mushy love songs. it's so damn sweeeeeet! it's like even though i know it's so fricking idealistic to fall in love with songs like that, i still do. i still do want someone to sing something like that to me, to fall in love so completely and sweetly, to just lose myself in someone's eyes, to actually be in love instead of being in love with the idea of love itself.

i know people always say how in the real world, such a naive concept of love has no place. and yeah, maybe i do have to grow up a lot more and open my eyes to the harsher reality instead of keeping my rose-tinted glasses on all the time, living perpetually in my happy little bubble. but i can't help but keep on hoping for the day when i fall in love with someone who loves me too instead of falling in love with someone who doesn't. i feel that it isn't too much to ask for, to ask for true innocent love, but at the same time i kinda feel it IS asking far too much of life. because if you actually think about it, how many people actually find their true soulmate by the time their lives on this earth are over? so many people end up marrying the wrong people, which is why we see all these divorces happening like nobody's business nowadays.

if i could only wish for one thing in my entire life, i'd wish for me to meet and fall in love with the perfect guy of my dreams - and have him love me too. i know love isn't meant to be selfish, as my favourite verse from 1 Corinthians so very nicely puts it. but this isn't really being selfish, is it? the need to love and to be loved in return is such an age-old human need that's an intergral aspect of our humanity. i can't love someone who wishes i wouldn't love him/her. not because it's hard to but because i won't because if i truly love the person, i won't want to make him/her upset and so i won't show that i love him/her.

okay this is getting slightly confusing.

sigh but i'm feeling melancholy now just thinking about my entire library of love songs and the mushy but oh-so-sweet lyrics. if only life could be like that, if only for a day.


until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
now and forever - i will be your man.


how damn sweet.
because the ocean will never not touch the sand, so therefore he will be her man forever. never say forever cos forever is an impossible concept to fathom. but always say forever cos it's comforting to think that someone'll be there for you for ever and ever till you die.

sigh i feel like crying. i don't know why.

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