today was such a dreary day. i dragged myself out of bed at 1030 for stats tutorial this morning, but i think that just took my last burst of energy and i was dead to the world after that. lunched with Mel and headed back to my room to nap before stats lecture at 2, but it was a BAD IDEA. that resulted in me skipping stats AND econs lecture. bleaaahhh. i really have to stop this ponning habit. it's baaaaaad. a student shouldn't be ponning classes. a student shouldn't be staying up till 5am every night. i need some Discipline in my life - fast. before my cap drops to something like 3 this sem and i can say goodbye to any possibilities of doing a double degree in arts and business.

yes yes, i am an ambitious girl.

lately i feel like i've been losing focus. on a lot of things. school seems a bit like a cca now, which feels so wrong somehow. it's like hall stuff's become my main priority these days, and school's just a by-the-way kinda thing.

jcrc rally AGAIN!!! it's like every single week. i really need to catch up with my work. i closed my room door in the hopes that the block comm will think i'm not in or something. the rally's kinda not very fun to attend. and a little bit of a waste of time. and I NEED TO STUDY. project meeting later tonight - i'm starting to dread projects. every single module seems to require one, it's getting a bit ridiculous. i'm afraid i'll lose track of what i'm doing for what projects, there're just too darn many. 2 film projects this sem! even stats requires a project! what kinda project does one do for stats?? it's all math. how do you do a math project?? and i can see myself dying for my IT project already. i suck so badly at IT that i don't know what i'm gonna do to save my sorry ass.

i am so lazy to go shower or start doing anything productive. the floor's nice and peaceful today cos everyone's downstairs for jcrc rally. i think i'm gonna go shower before the project meeting tonight. my back's killing me. i think i'm gonna get severe arthritis or reumhetism next time when i'm old and grey. reumhetism is such a horrid word to spell. i think i got it wrong.

8:45 PM;