today i did smu duty for frisbee in the morning. kept the time for the matches and got to sound the siren to signal the end of the halves. it IS rather liberating to do that, sound the sirens and have it wail loudly all over the court. i think there must be a hidden side of me that relishes power and having everyone's attention on me.

today i swam for my block and i'm not really ashamed to say this but i swam damn badly. i forgot how to plunge from my acjc swimming pe days, forgot how to swim freestyle quick enough to beat the boys (the lousy ones lah), forgot how to swim period. but at least the girls still came in third overall even though we got fourth for two out of three events.

today i did my IT tutorial and tried to do my econs case study for the presentation group meeting tomorrow at 43o. schoolwork's really catching up with me and i need to get back up to speed.

my eyes are closing as i type all these in now cos i'm damn fricking tired, having only had a measley 3-and-a-half hours of sleep last night and having had spent the entire bloody day under the sun. i'm a horrific shade of brown that so doesn't become me now. and i am in a horrendous mood. i apologise for the semi-vulgarities but my foul mood's dictating how and what i talk about.

you want to hear about me being upset and irritated and fricking annoyed? i didn't think so. i'm just pms-ing and i feel so emotionally, mentally and physically drained out and completely sucked dry. how much can a very normal girl take before she breaks down and wants out? i'm about to find out. how much does a very normal girl have to do to get what she wants? i'm probably never gonna find out because it's never enough. everything's in a haze now and i want to just sleep and sleep everything away, and when i wake up and open my eyes, everything will be nice and dandy and so damn nice.

humour me, please.

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