blahhhh i feel like total crap.
my monthly cramps have started in full force and i feel so nauseous. ugh. i spent my entire morning sleeping in a valiant but fruitless effort to rid myself of this awful head-spinning sensation.
yucks man.
i really want to scream or cry. my abdomen feels like it's about to be ripped open by wave after wave of contractions and i can't do anything but bear the pain, with curled toes and all.
deep breath.
and i've got so much work to do today. i'm gonna be spending almost the entire day in church today, with the Amazingrace meeting with the catechists at 2 and ZJ at 430 til 9.
i'm gonna bring my pills. i think i'm gonna need them.
MY HEAD WON'T STOP SPINNING!
argh. this is very unsettling.
ha unsettling's too mild a word to use actually.
my body won't stop shivering from the pain. i'm afraid people are gonna think i have muscle spasms or something. ugh. help.
and my feet are so bloody cold.
i honestly honestly wonder if there's anything wrong with me. if there were
anything i could do to get rid of my cramps, i would. but a scan at KK last year told me that there're no fibroids in my womb, no nothing. so what could be causing my muscles to contract to sharply every month?
if i were a doctor, i'd specialise in gynaecology so i can figure out what is fricking wrong with my body.
one thing to be grateful about, at least.
getting my cramps now is a lot better than getting it a week or two from now, when camp season begins in earnest. i mean, if it's gonna come anyway, better now than later.
WAIL! i want to vomit!
