get out get out get out just fricking get out of my head!!!
i'm degenerating into disconnected swear words in my own head a la Othello.
seriously, just get the hell out of my head and leave me alone.
i need to get on with my life and at this point in time, i just can't.
why? oh, don't ask stupid questions, please.
sigh. maybe it's all me. maybe you ARE trying to get out but i won't let you go.
maybe it's me who keeps slamming the door and trying so hard to keep you in, even though we both know it's better for us both if i let you go.
maybe i should be the one shoving you out.
i think i'm sliding into the depths of depression. maybe i've been depressed for two years already, but i just didn't really realise it til today.
i mean, i
knew i was upset and all, but not clincally depressed.
but looking at all the symptoms, i'm deciding that maybe it's really clincal depression.
i don't want to leave home. all i want to do is hide in my bed and sleep. i feel upset very easily.
add on all my academic woes and that's just the cherry on top of the pie.
so just fricking get out.
